Full Moon Tarot Spread (October - November 2018)

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We’re heading into another Full Moon, which means it’s time for another Full Moon Tarot Spread.

If you would like to do your own reading, I have been using Biddy Tarot’s full moon spread, which you can find here.

Now that’s out of the way, here is my reading for this full moon period:

Full Moon

What Have I Created/Manifested Since The New Moon (King of Wands/Reversed)

Keywords: Impulsiveness, haste, ruthlessness, high expectations

When something peaks my interest I have a tendency to go a little overboard and become a bit obsessive about things. Because I get so focused, I set really high expectations for myself that a lot of the time I can't meet. I ultimately end up disappointed and burning myself out.

My latest obsession has been creating a structured morning routine and working that around the Ayurvedic clock (I rushed into these after watching a couple of videos on youtube).

Where Am I Now (Queen of Wands/Reversed)

Keywords: Shrinking violet, aggressive, demanding

Right now, I am incredibly exhausted. I can feel myself retreating because I feel overwhelmed and a little sorry for myself.

I know when I'm fatigued and overwhelmed, I can be incredibly grumpy, and for lack of better words, a complete and utter douche canoe. I really don’t want that to happen this time around/let being tired get the better of me.

What is coming into your consciousness (6 of pentacles/reversed)

Keywords: debt, selfishness, one-sided charity

When I look at this card, I see a union in disharmony; they're losing everything they've built together (it's literally dropping away from them).

This card reminded me of a talk I had with my husband recently; I realised I can be incredibly selfish when it comes to my relationships (especially my marriage). I expect a lot, and don't necessarily put in the same amount of work, and when I'm going full-steam with my latest obsessions, I don't always stop to consider how it could bee affecting the people around me, or what sacrifices they may have to make in order to accommodate me.

Realising this reminded me of a lyric from Common's song The Light, which is: If relationship is effort I will match your work - it’s something I know I need to work on.

What is no longer serving me (9 of wands/upright)

keywords: courage, persistence, trest of faith, resilience

When I look at this card, I see a man standing alone, wary of everything around him.

I know I need to let go of the feeling that I have to do it all alone. Well, not necessarily alone, just an overriding feeling that ultimately I should never rely on anyone else. Sure people will let me down, but it doesn't mean I should shut everyone out.

I also need to let go of the feeling that no one likes me. I often feel as if I don't have many friends because I'm unlikeable and uncool, but I realised recently that people actively try to build relationships with me, and I shut them out.

I need to let all that shit go.

How Can I release and Let Go (4 of cups/reversed)

keywords: boredom, discontent, missed opportunity, being aloof

The definition of aloof - not friendly of forthcoming, cool and distant

The tarot is hitting me with the truth today. I know that in order to release and let go, I need to work on myself and identify the parts of my inner child that are hurting and black everyone out.

I also need to look at my life right now and work out where it is I feel the most discontent and bored, and see if there are ways that Ic a become unstuck.

What Additional Resources do I have available as I release and let go (3 of swords/reversed)

keywords: releasing pain, optimism, forgiveness

YES TO ALL OF THIS. I need to remove all the swords from my heart, allow myself to heal, and be able to forgive.

Forgivness to me is the key to moving on and letting go; it doesn't mean forgetting. I feel that forgiveness is about choosing to be free of hurt and pain, for no one else but myself. It's about not being caught up in other people's crap, or being bound and burdened by bitterness, anger, and hatred (I'm going to share my views about forgiveness in a later blog, so keep your eyes peeled).

My Takeaway

Sometimes life is shit; I think I sometimes have really high expectations around what i want my life to look like and what I think will make me happy. This often leads to a feeling of discontentment and boredom because I'm nowhere near when I think I should be.

I'm starting to realise that these feelings are fine they're valid, but I need to work on myself to find why I'm so attached to outcome, and why I think the things I want will make me happier/more content

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This full moon, I decided to pull some chakra cards from my July Astral Box, which I reviewed here.

I pulled these cards to see what areas of my life I should work on, and I got heart and crown. Honestly, I’m not surprised.