What Is My Spirituality?
I've never talked about my spiritual beliefs online; partly because I was scared of what other people would think (will they think I'm weird or evil?), and partly because until recently, I wasn't really sure what my beliefs were.
I've come to a place where I now know what I believe, and while I don't have a label for my belief system, I think the best way to sum it up would be to say that I'm an agnostic solitary witch.
I was raised in a Christian household, and even though I was baptised and became born-again, I wasn't sure I believed any of it (I certainly didn't care about converting people or getting anyone to see the light; I've always believed people should have free-will to believe what they want, and I also had this feeling in the back of my head that kept asking what if I'm is wrong?).
Growing up, I always had a fascination with the occult; I was intrigued by tarot cards, fortune tellers with crystal balls, druids, ancient mythology, nature and herbal remedies.
It wasn't until I had surgery for endometriosis this year I realised that witchcraft was the path I was meant to be traveling. I wrote the following in a journal:
Yesterday, I came to the realisation that I am a witch (this is weird to say). I have always been a witch, growing up Christian and being stol magic was evil didn't deter me from wondering/questioning and deep down I have always been drawn to crystals, magic, tarot cards, spellts etc. I don't believe in any religion, I'm not sure what it is I believe... but I feel my heart calling me in this direction. I think now that i'm older, I feel more comfortabe and free to follow a path that was always there.
It turns out being pain free is great for helping me get in touch with my intuition; I found a journal from 2014, which was when I had my first surgery laparoscopy. In that journal,wrote about magic, how I had always been interested in it and how it was helping me get more in touch with my creativity.
I'm not sure why I stopped practicing magic that time around, but I am thankful to be finally be traveling my true path and sharing more about my spiritual journal here.